It’s in that moment he realised how big a mistake he had made. The moment when he, despite accepting his mistake, was blamed for not caring. Despite showing affection, was blamed for being cold.
It was then he realised that it was her who did not have the insight to look inside of herself. It was her who only pretended to have empathy, or love. She was the selfish one, the apathetic one.
It was the moment their love had died, the last of it.
Don’t let the light fool you,
Don’t let the warmth soothe you,
It’s departing from my dying soul.
It’s fueled by a guilt I never knew,
Of being alive and present,
Where it should have been you.
Years don’t have a meaning,
Time is merely a word,
Since the day she breathed her last in this world.
Days are since heavy,
Tears don’t make them light either,
I wait for the day I’ll be back together with you my sister.
इस धूप से ही तो तेरी छाओं है,
इन रास्तो से ही तो तेरा गांव हैं,
इन बातों से ही तो तेरी हँसी है,
इन रातों से ही तो तेरी याद है,
उन आंसुओ से ही मेरा दर्द है,
तेरी बातो से ही मुझे मिलने की आस है,
पल पल मुझे तेरा एहसास कराति,
शायद तू नही जानती,
ये दूरियों से नज़दीक हमारा प्यार है।
-Aditya Gulati, leafletbytes
Let me start from where we left,
Distant like the horizon, promises were kept
How we cuddled without a care
Our tears washing, our bodies bare
With daggers of separation we waited on our isles
For a message from the waves, it was a while
Staring at the ceiling, I’d wonder if this was it
The darkness wouldn’t care, if the emptiness did
So hold me tight, like an umbrella in a storm
Embrace me for eternity, with the warm blanket of your love
I miss how you ran towards me at the airport,
How your tears trickled down my coat,
How you rested on my shoulder, with your gentle face,
How you looked at me, with a longing gaze,
How I got anxious, opening that door,
To kiss and never stop, on the carpeted floor,
How I woke up to the smell of coffee brewing,
Your glowing face looking out the window, staring at the city moving,
How we made love before breakfast,
Kissed in the shower till we were breathless,
How you talked like there were no tomorrow,
Your simplicity made the world seem hollow,
How we got high on fourth of whiskey,
You whispered in my ears and got all giggly
How you promised to watch a movie till the end,
But you fell asleep looking like an angel,
How we made plans for our future,
Dreaming of the places we’d go together,
I miss everything that is you in this distance,
I’m looking for you through this fog,
If only moments could be bottled,
You would be my only grog
– Aditya Gulati, Leafletbytes
I’m scared to get attached, but I’m ready for the pain there might be
Because I love feeling the butterflies, with your face I feel..
All it saw was your nonchalance, all it cared was for perfection but the mirror’s blind, for you’re even more beautiful beneath..
So pure are your emotions, I wish not for even a needle to touch you, Ask me why I feel for you, I saw in you someone who I wished for mine to be..
Stop and wonder how much light you bring wherever you go, how much you teach me to live, it’s boggling how full of life you are, how it’s the good you always see..
Oh I do not know when I started caring, pardon me if I thought about you in every beat
It’s funny the tears were yours, but I’m the one who felt weak..
All I know it’s a feeling I cannot understand, it will remain a story incomplete,
But how I choose to not care, I felt loved where it wasn’t supposed to be..
-Aditya Gulati, Leafletbytes
Every song has a memory, every place has reminiscing
In the lush of my mind she resides, singing by the oak she’s swinging
Oh why dear heart, don’t you remember
You were tormented, dismembered
Why are these hateful words, but meaningless
I Tell myself it’s over, I still don’t feel any less
Yet in my mind she resides, and I smile at her across the fence,
I embrace loneliness but still long for deliverance..
-Aditya Gulati, Leafletbytes
A cozy spring morning, it’s 8 am
The sunlight falls on my arm,
It glows like a gem
But my eyes are a sun all in their self,
Maybe they don’t want to rise,
with all the dreams still open over the shelf
I am delicate, I am ripe, I am precious, dreams casting a shadow
But like a rainbow, into certainty, they might fade away..
so let me sleep for now, for this sun wakes up where my fantasies lay.
-Aditya Gulati, Leafletbytes
How the first leaf twitches and the trees dance on the rhythm of the breeze..
How the morning sun flirts with the delicate orange sky,
How the birds chirp in their nests, wake the missus by their side,
How the ocean caresses the island sand, little turtles hatch to take a leap of hope,
As the winter falls, how the snow puts the hills to sleep..and the clouds watch over
How the lake stays still when the moon is full, just to gaze at him while the moment is lull
Look around yourself, every inch of nature is in love, let the wallflower in you bloom itself
-Aditya Gulati, Leafletbytes
She took light from the moon, shined bright to be with the stars
Fulfilled, it seemed dim to her, she turned a blind eye to it’s scars
And now the moon rises every night, hoping she finds her way back with it’s light
-Aditya Gulati, Leafletbytes
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